Then and Now!
Putting Things into Perspective..
Back in 2015, in early Jan, I was at the Lourdes church, waiting for my bus to take me back to hostel after classes were dismissed for the day. This was the closest I could get to be near God since going to the temple was a torrid affair back at PC Hostel and it happened only once every week on a sunday.
As I waited in the hot burning sun, I was teeming with anger for when I instrospected I didn’t like what I saw – I was 17, away from home stuck in a hostel by my own interests, struggling to get my acts together. I was nowhere near my dream and I knew everything that I had sacrificed till now would come to an utter waste.
I was but a complete failure in my eyes. And the only thing I felt like doing was placing all the blame on God. Those were some of the most darkest times of my life, SO FAR.
I was clueless as any clueless person could ever be.
4 years later, today I’m still clueless about what I want. I don’t know what the next step is going to be.
But the memories and experiences I’ve gained over these past years have been instrumental in changing my life. I’ve won achievements. I’ve utilised every chance I’ve got to make a difference in my life. I kept hustling.
And that’s why I’m here at this church again – to apologise for my actions for there will be times when you are angry and afraid. And it’s okay to feel that. Because things will work out at the end.
They always do.
